It's official!

I took my NCLEX-PN yesterday morning and as of today, I'm officially an LPN!

w00t w00t!!!

All smiles today! Nothing is going to ruin this for me!

Blah and Moans

I'm having a case of the blah's today. Not sure where it came from.

Monday was my 34th birthday and I had a fantastic day! I worked, babysat, and had dinner with my sponsor, grandsponsor, and another woman that my sponsor sponsor's. (that's a lot of sponsor in one sentence!)

Last night was my homegroup, and something interesting always happens. Lately, there has been a woman who brings a meal to eat during the meeting each week. It varies from Taco Bell, McDonalds, Wendy's, or various items from the grocery store. Last week she brought shrimp and a salad - which she had a hell of a time opening. As she began eating, she began moaning over how delicious it was and then she moved onto the burping and slupring her drink to wash it down. Which is where the problem comes in, she always sits next to me and because I'm so immature, I get the giggles. Non-stop. I just can't help myself. And then people watch me giggle and try to hold it in and get the giggles as well and it ripples through the meeting.

So, I've found a solution! I'm not selecting my seat until she's comfortable settled in. Unfortunately, that was right across from me last night and her shorts were WAY too short and you could see everything. I'm convinced God knows I need some humor in my life right now and that these circumstances are going to continue. So, I'll continue to appreciate it when these little things happen and keep on gigglin'.

Oh, the life

Princess, relaxing as usual on the lanai.

I think I may take some lessons. =)

Wake Up Call

So, let's face it, I'm feeling awfully sorry for myself lately. Which happens to everyone. I've always felt that it's okay to sit on your pity pot, but to give it a time frame and don't live there. So, I think I'm beginning to come off the pot. A few really great things have happened in the last week:

1. My hearing for permission to apply for my nursing license went fabulously well with a unanimous approval from the board.
2. My authorization to test arrived yesterday!
3. I scheduled my boards for April 25th.
4. Yesterday I spent the entire day with an old friend from highschool - we were inseparable as children.
5. My sister went to jail again over the weekend.

I know, number 5 seems a little bitchy, but look at this picture.

This time, she's in there for domestic battery on her boyfriend, who happens to be our parents age and married with children our age. It's very sad, but it's also what needs to happen. I've recently had to completely step away from her in order to maintain what little serenity I have. She's toxic and began doing things like asking me to come visit but then calling the police on my way there to tell them I'm attempting to tresspass. It's the insanity and sickness of this disease at it's best.

I'm grateful that this isn't me. I'm grateful that other people go out so I don't have to. I'm grateful that the fear is dissipating and being replaced slowly with faith. I'm grateful I get to be a nurse. And, most of all, I'm grateful for my health.

These past few weeks have felt like a slap in the face but it's really been a wake up call on how I need to rely on faith and my higher power. It's so easy to get busy and consumed by the daily ongoings of life and forget something so simple as prayer.

Staying in the moment

I'm really struggling with this right now. I have a tendency to plan and prepare for whatever happens, and I can't do that right now. My mind keeps taking me to the worst case scenario, leaving me with a constant feeling of despair and devastation. I'm trying to remember all of the things I'm grateful for, including the amazing friendship I feel like I'm losing, and I'm praying whenever I can and using a mantra to try to distract my mind... Ugh :(