Blah and Moans

I'm having a case of the blah's today. Not sure where it came from.

Monday was my 34th birthday and I had a fantastic day! I worked, babysat, and had dinner with my sponsor, grandsponsor, and another woman that my sponsor sponsor's. (that's a lot of sponsor in one sentence!)

Last night was my homegroup, and something interesting always happens. Lately, there has been a woman who brings a meal to eat during the meeting each week. It varies from Taco Bell, McDonalds, Wendy's, or various items from the grocery store. Last week she brought shrimp and a salad - which she had a hell of a time opening. As she began eating, she began moaning over how delicious it was and then she moved onto the burping and slupring her drink to wash it down. Which is where the problem comes in, she always sits next to me and because I'm so immature, I get the giggles. Non-stop. I just can't help myself. And then people watch me giggle and try to hold it in and get the giggles as well and it ripples through the meeting.

So, I've found a solution! I'm not selecting my seat until she's comfortable settled in. Unfortunately, that was right across from me last night and her shorts were WAY too short and you could see everything. I'm convinced God knows I need some humor in my life right now and that these circumstances are going to continue. So, I'll continue to appreciate it when these little things happen and keep on gigglin'.

Still here!

I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted! The days have just been flying by and before I know it another week has gone by. School is keeping me so busy, which is a good thing. We've just finished an Anatomy & Physiology course in 4 weeks and I've managed, through tons of hard work, to end up with a 97% final grade. Yay! There aren't actual words for how ecstatic I am to be finished with it. This is going to be one long year. Only 9 1/2 months left to go.

I've still been going to meetings and trying to keep up on that as much as I possibly can. This is one of those times that I can actually see that being in recovery is truly a blessing for me. I actually have time to get work done as well as time to go to meetings and keep my life together. Some of the students at school are having a hard time keeping up and every thursday when the day is done, they go out drinking. The first time I went with them, I had no idea what I was getting into, than God I had dinner scheduled with my sponsor and a few women from my homegroup. It's not that I wanted to drink, but I can see how quickly people change from one setting to the next and I don't think I'll ever feel a need to be a part of that again. The second time I went, we actually just went to eat and I bailed as soon as we were done with dinner. I'm grateful to have a few friends at school but I can tell that that's as far as those friendships are going to go for the majority of them.

So, courtesy of a cool lady at school I was encouraged to take the Myers-Briggs personality test. And, I was told to be super proud of my personality type, INFJ. Apparently it's the rarest one and only 1-3% of the population is categorized as an INFJ. Has anyone else taken this test? What does it actually mean?

Spring Break, Baby!

Today is the first day of spring break for me. And, I've already mady two typos calling it "sprint" break. Hmmm. Let's hope it doesn't sprint by me. My plans for next week are to get one group of assignments ahead and relax by the pool catching some rays. I've only picked up one extra shift for work and I don't forsee too many others; already making it clear to my agency that I need a break, I'm hoping that they don't call too many times.

Even if I don't get anything productive done this coming week, things will be okay. Right now I feel fried and sore. Something is wrong with my knee, so I'm wearing a brace on it and icing it, and my back got a slight strain the other day when my instructor gave me the biggest guy in the class to do position changes on... There's a reason there should be two people when someone is fully incapicitated.

And, for next week, incorporating a few more meetings into my schedule. I'm not always going to be able to go whenever it's convienent because this nursing course is condensed and very intense. Although, I never miss my home group, I sure could use a big piece of AA pie.

My dreams lately have been all about drinking and school. I don't want to drink, but I think because I'm so overtired it's what my alcoholic brain automatically defaults to. In some of the dreams I'm sneaking drinks and in others I'm just flat out drinking and have never been in recovery. Things like this truly help me along my road. I never feel good in the dream and when I wake up, it's refreshing to know I don't have to live like that anymore. But, I must say, in all of these dreams... I'm wearing latex gloves and other protective equipment. It's all very strange! But, it's things like this that make me laugh.